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Saturday, December 11, 2010


I'm glad December treating me better than November did. School's been going fine and I just can't wait for everything to end by late February. The next two months is not going to be easy, but I have to keep telling myself that it's all gonna be worth while.

Today marks my 29th monthsary with boyfriend. We didn't really celebrate because we both had our plans but we did met up a while ago for dinner at Qiji, Marina Square. I miss him terribly.. Anyways, Happy 29th Monthsary, Darling! It's been great loving you since day one. More to come, Insya'Allah.

Moving on, things at home has been pretty fine too. Not much issues at home. Just that I seemed to not have anything much to say nowadays. I don't know, maybe it's just the time of the month or something?

I've been thinking to myself a lot lately. Figuring out how I should live my life after graduating from RP. If anyone would ask me right now, on what are my plans after graduating, I bet you'll hear me say, I really don't know.

Initial intention is to do further studies either locally or overseas. But, like always, money has always been an issue. Thinking about money makes me take a step back and reflect. I have a lot of things to pay for. Well, I need to repay the DBS for the study loan I took from them every month. I need to pay my long overdue bills. I need to help the family out. I need to help myself out.

Now tell me, how can I even think of furthering my studies? I even thought of having a full time job and at the same time taking a part time degree course in SIM, and it ain't cheap yo. Also, I can foresee myself not being able to multi-task those two well. So, how?? What should I do now?

And if I were to make a decision to start my working life, then what career should I embark on? Something related to Supply Chain/Logistics or something of my interest like Education? There you have it, the things that I've always been thinking every single day, without fail.

Nothing in life has been easy so far. Especially in terms of financial. Oh and don't forget, I've got no freedom too. Not totally freedom-less, but more or less, I have curfews to abide to. Yes, at my age. One of the saddest truth in life, my life to be precise.

All this shits always come to me the moment I'm on my bed, or whenever I'm alone. I don't know about you, but if you are not experiencing what I am currently experiencing, then lucky you.
Till here, goodnight.

If in any case, my status or my blog entries seems to be all emo shits and it makes you wonder and at the same time, pisses you off or anything, I can only say..
I'm sorry but that's one of the saddest truth in life, my life.

Runaway.
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